Sunday, October 4, 2009

Confessions of a former hopeless romantic part IV

Read the paragraph below and then click on the link preceding the paragraph to view the slideshow.  The site has received so many hits that it may take a moment
for the slide presentation to display but it is well worth the wait!

This guy Rob said God was unfolding a vision in his life over the span of
about a year and then he put faith to feet and made it happen. Rob and
Keisha dated for about 4 years. And he knew that she was the one...but he
had to save up for all that God had prompted him to do for her. So in short
what you are about to see happen on April 28th....he rented out 10 rooms in
the Ritz Carlton in Buckhead and invited about 50-60 people to be there for
this special night...Keisha had to go from room to room and in each room
were people who were special to them....his boys...her girls...her Bible
Study group...his parents...her parents..etc. and everybody in each room
had questions that she had to answer to be able to move to the next room
and before she left each room the people there would pray over her...so you
have to watch each room to see how that goes...he chose roses because
Keisha's aunt who passed suddenly loved roses and he bought some of the
dipped in gold because of the stories in the Bible about Solomon and how
everything was dipped in gold and the song that you hear playing in the
background was the same song that was played at Keisha's aunts funeral, she
was like a second mom to Keisha.

When Rob was asked what he was thinking and how it felt...he said that he
was kicking and screaming all the way, not because he did not love Keisha
and want to marry her....but because of the time , money, and stress that
was spent doing this. Rob, put his house up for rent and saved for her ring
and this night and he did it out of obedience.

Click the link from Rob's email below to see the slide show...turn your
volume up.....


Subject: Robert & Keisha's Engagement Pictures

I have spent the past year of my life piecing together a vision given to me
by God. On April 28, 2007, that vision was fulfilled.  My labor of love for
the woman I love.

"God Is Love...The Proposal"


The Proposal (link)

A few years ago I received this email as a forward. I did not pay too much attention to it. I think maybe that I wasn't quite ready to watch it. Okay, so here I am being honest again. I think when it comes to love and relationships, I have got to be the most double minded person. A few weeks ago, one of my cousin's updated her Facebook status with this...

I must really learn that its not shameful to accept from others. Love must be balanced. If nobody were to receive love, who could give it?

Sowing and Reaping, Give and Take. Where did I learn this shame? When did this imbalance take root and germinate. Better yet, how do I begin to abort this weed? I need some Round Up! This weed is choking the life.So I was reminded this week that the first step to recovery is even admitting there is a problem...

Hi my name is Jodi and I am recovering hopeless romantic. And we all say "Hi Jodi". Some of you may not understand why it's so important for me not to continue in this state. I know I know, a hopeless romantic is a popular term assigned to those who are in love with love. I am not saying that I don't love long walks on the beach, roses and candlelit dinners as much as the next girl. What I am saying is that I can no longer use a term that begins with hopeless. I am not hopeless "having no expectation of hope;despair;desperate" as the on-line dictionary states. I stopped caring several years ago about what is the popular thing to say.

So here I am on this journey, discovering myself, facing my fears, coming clean and becoming. I love that word...BECOMING. It's delicate yet has movement. There is no expectation of time, the beginning or the end, or what the destination will bring. It just means a process of change. Change...now that's a good thing. Freaky, just had a Deja VU. Watching Brothers and Sisters and typing the word change. I digress.

This week I had a CONVERSATION that changed my life. It made me stretch my beliefs and boundaries, my hopes and my dreams, my self-worth and fears. I appreciate my friend for that. I appreciate his honesty, the gentle approach and most of all his listening ear. So, I reflected. Then remembered this email from 2007. Located it and watched the whole thing beginning to end. No longer afraid to face my fear of connecting with another individual. Understanding that I am worth of all of this and more. Learning that in order for me to experience my idea of romantic love, I must not be afraid to receive love. There is a vulnerability in all of this of course. Is there really any other way to truly grow?

2 comments:

  1. Jodi, Jodi, Jodi...
    Very powerful writing my friend. So... I dismissed your individual email with this link... well because... I was so eager to look at Poppy's 90th birthday pictures... to which I knew I would already be dissappointed about... knowing I didn't capture the right images that I wanted. You see the bar I set for myself with my photography is way up here... always just out of reach from what I feel I am able to attain. Here it is 2:45a.m.... the house is still and quiet... (the puppy woke me up to let her outside)... and here I sit directed to your blog. I took the time to not be in a rush the second time around that you tried to present this beautfiul story (lesson) to me... and I just watched the entire video. His pictures told the story... not every picture was without flaw... but as I watched the video from a photographers eye... I realized it doesn't matter about the image looking perfect... but about if it captured the moment, told a story, made me pause a couple seconds longer to admire it, tugged at my heart strings looking at it. You know? I was asked to shoot a fancy golf club formal evening... and every part of me is feeling like a little lobster... trying to figure out how to back myself out of the shoot and move backwards into a dark corner... just out of view. I related to Rob when he said he was "kicking and screaming the whole way" not due to his love... but to secondary feelings. Jodi, my friend, you are powerful and wise and honest... and I can not even begin to tell you how much you have influenced my life in recent months. You seem to be present in my life when I need inspiration most. Do I think you are God sent... yes, of course I do! Your last two lines were to a tee right on point and I appreciated you ending this post with them. Much love, Freida

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  2. Beautiful! Thank you for sharing your heart and being willing to help others do the same. That video was breath-taking! This post situates hope, love & faith...and the greatest of these - is always, love!

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